happy new year~
its already 2009
time sure passes quickly...
a new year, a new beginning. i can't wait to start school again :D

my ahgong's bones actually hv words on them after he was cremated. how creepy is that?

stupid mum, always so unreasonable and biase

its weird, things can't be the same

i hv gotten used to life without you, it has been over a mth

i think some things can never be the same again. wasn't it the end when u deleted me off msn?

yes i hv seen it. i nvr thought u would talk to me again..it made me start wondering why...u made up your mind,with a very definite and strong mindset-u said no regrets. so why are you changing your mind now?

suddenly hv a craving for wanton mee..the one at woodlands is yummy =)

merry xmas everybody~

i got my first and last xmas present again from my aunt downstairs-2 pink shirts =) while my bro got a set of limited edition pens. every year there would be a xmas gathering and dinner at their house but since ahgong just passed away,most prob tonight there wouldn't be one

seriously dumb. my dad's heart condition is worse than before and yet he doesn't wanna go for operation. really courting death

today was the last day of the funeral. it was total chaos at Mandai Crematorium. i was actually kinda amused by the din my relatives were making-most were crying,a few were shouting at my ahgong to wake up. what was interesting was that my eldest uncle suddenly shouted 'SHUT UP!!' and there was a moment of silence. even the crying ceased for a few seconds. hmm i wonder how this year's new year celebration would be like..

Every time I found the words to say
What I thought would make things okay
I kept it all inside
Slowly drowning in my pride
I never could admit my own mistakes
Some how I thought things would fall into place
And I made a change too late

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position and I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try
In hopes you might come back you're where my heart's at
I have to find a way

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

And everytime I think of you
It's hard for me to think of what I can do
I used to have you here beside me
I just want you here beside me baby
How can the sun keep shinin'
When my whole body's cryin
I know I never told you why
I need you in my life

Ohohohooooo

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

i was dreaming when i woke up to some noises. it was then 5.40plus. my aunt was knocking on the window and calling my mum's name. i went to see what she wanted and she just told me to wake my mum up. she told my mum to go to the hospital immediately as ahgong was in terrible shape. my mum changed and left within a few minutes. when i woke up in the morning,didi told me that ahgong has passed away. i have no more grandfathers. life is really unpredictable..just last week i was at ahgong's house and now he is gone just like that..

All Good Things (Come To An End)

Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

i really do not know what to do. my brain is dead and so is my heart. for now its just one step at a time.

its pointless...

today has been one of the most boring days of my life.

I'm an angel, I'm a devil
I am sometimes in between
I'm as bad it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I'm a million colors
Sometimes I'm black and white
I am all extremes
Try figure me out you never can
There's so many things I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

I'm someone filled with self-belief
And haunted by self-doubt
I've got all the answers
I've got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I'm up and I am down
But that's part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

I'm a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm not sure who I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I am
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
Of all the things I am

finally changed blogskin (i count it as a update) XD

i have invited myself as an author on your blog...doubt you will mind yawns :O

Better In Time by Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

thx for helping mi edit my lit hw ^^ it is greatly appreciated ( even thou u leave so many para untouched lol )

i wont be blogging for a long time so i hope you all have a

happy


chinese


new


year


ahead~~~